And how would you like your eggs?

Random musings about the Egg...

1) I had a dream that Angel Jr was best buddies with the comedian Carrot Top. They were driving around in a convertible with Carrot's kid. Does Carrot have a kid in real life? I don't know what this dream means. Can anyone explain? I'm nuts!

2) I'm very energetic and love new experiences. I don't know where I get the vast amount of fuel to be so bubbly (a nice term instead of hyper!). I'm definitely a people-person. I always find ways to connect with even the oddest of the bunch. This has caused many conflicts when group outings are concerned. Not everyone has the same level of tolerance for wacky people.

3) My reinvention tour started last August and is still continuing. It has been so much fun. But also draining when it comes to finances. No way in hell will I move back home! I'd rather be poor for a while until Angel Jr. and I have our own radio show. Anyway, the cash flow isn't the best. I know I'll upgrade to a higher paying job soon. I have to! And no way in hell that I'll return to clinical medicine. I had an idea about hand modeling...what do you guys think?

4) I used to be an insomniac for years. I have my relapses, but sleep has been much better for the past months. I had trouble with sleep since childhood, and the problem escalated when I went to medical school. Along with the insomnia, I also discovered that my dream-world can be quite exotic, funny, sad, and terrifying.

5) A couple of years ago I found out that the root of my sleeping problems is related to a condition called PTSD. We've all heard of it. I couldn't take it any longer, so I went to a therapist for a few months. I didn't feel so guilty about my anxiety anymore. I'll always be a sensitive freak (it's my nature to be a highly sensitive soul!), and will just have to find ways to manage this disorder. People who don't know me probably think I'm just a happy person all the time and wonder what kind of medication I must be taking. I call it a natural high. Yet we all have a dark side my friends. I'm learning to appreciate the light and dark sides of myself...I have a weird attraction to douchebags!

6) I love to eat. I savor the taste of every morsel, and this is why I eat slowly. I don't understand how some people just inhale food without really giving the taste buds a full experience. The slow eating also explains why I have a good metabolism (eh most of the time!). I'm proud of this habit. I think others should try it.

7) My hair can morph into various styles depending on the mood. If I don't blow dry, then the end result is a giant bouffant which usually surprises people..."Wow I didn't know you had so much hair!" Perhaps I'll post a picture of this style for your entertainment.

8) I tend to be closer with my guy friends. I have lots of girlfriends, and definitely appreciate their company and femininity. But somehow I can talk more openly with the male species. Generally I find that they don't worry about trivial concerns such as us women..."Oh I wonder if so and so thinks.." or "Does my ass look big in these jeans?" They don't give a shit. And make sure that this principle gets ingrained into your head. I've dumped many insecurities over the years due to their therapeutic principles. Thus, not ALL guys are douchebags!

9) I'll be turning 32 soon. For five years my birthdays were real downers. I tried to be happy for the occasion, but I wasn't. This year I'll be having a bash at my favorite hangout: the best gay bar in rural PA! The people are truly wonderful. Every time I go there, I'm surrounded by love. Recently one of the regulars said how he likes that I'm a natural glow. Me?! Really? He said I light up the place and am not afraid to be myself. Wow. If you told me this at 16, I would have laughed like a silly clown. Now I'm truly learning to value compliments:)

10) I'm flat broke, but life is beautiful (though sucky every once in a while--hey that's the beauty of it!). I wouldn't want it any other way. Okay some cash would be nice:)